We arrived at the courthouse in Kampala at 2pm, spent about 2 minutes in a tiny room with the judge, and were told that he had not had time to look at our file. He said he will give the verbal ruling to the registrar, who will then read it aloud on Friday. The lawyer said we should receive a written ruling some time next week. I do not understand how all the miscommunication happens, but it does, and frequently.
I am confused, upset, angry, sad, lonely, discouraged, and frustrated, yet our God is still the same God and he still deserves our praises. I have had some deep and difficult conversations with God, journaled my heart out, and have cried till I have no more tears. It is hard. It is difficult being here by myself. Erryn and I talked tonight, and she has had a long and difficult day as well. It looks like both of us are delayed another week. We are discouraged but are clinging to the hope that we have in Christ. It is so ironic that Erryn and I are both in Uganda at the same time, going through one of the most challenging journeys and we can't be together. We keep telling each other, "I wish I could be there for you..." We cannot wait until the day when we are both on that plane with four children! I know it will happen, so I will choose to persevere. I know I am not doing it in my own strength. My flesh says to give up and go home. I am tired. I miss my family. I hate the drama. But I know I have been called to a bigger purpose, and in my weakness, God's strength is made perfect.
Keep praying...I know deep in my heart that God is at work. Even when we can't see the answers we are praying for, I know ultimately it will be for our good and for God's glory. I have to remind myself, "it is not about me...it is all about God and for His name to be made known." I would give anything to be finished with this adoption and to be reunited as a complete family, but in the mean time, I will choose to be obedient and willing so that I can be used to the fullest for God's glory. I need your prayers. You are fighting a big battle in the spiritual realm on my family's behalf.
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1 year ago